This is how i felt today... i wanted to curl up in a ball from all of my thoughts.. but i didn't.. i got through the day with no tears.. :) it was hard not talking today and i hope it doesn't get any harder.
When i thought i was doing a little better.. i got some really hurtful news.. all i could do was sit and think about why? Why is this happening and why are people so selfish sometime?...
I don't wish anything bad on anyone.. i just want everyone to try and be as nice as possible because things do come back in full force. i just turn my head and let the drama pass me by.. I'm so strong for everyone else.. but when do i get a break?
My nails and toes are now all black.. not for grief but for the things i need to go through to get to where I'm going.... sometime you have to endure some pain to receive the great relief... whats life without the good and the bad.. no one is perfect.. including me.. I'm still learning.. these lessons are knocking me on my ass though ... that's probably why its so big now lol :)
Ive learned a new method to arguing, silence.
Aww, this just totally depressed me. Here I go finally getting around to checking your blog and I read stuff like this. Sad.
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